On The Trail of Quiting Smoking

Worked Sunday night, got off work at 6am this morning. Stopped smoking at midnight. Ok it was 12:15 had to get that last puff in before placing the cigs in the trash (moan). Feel like I'm losing a child, throwing a way a good lover, amputating my right arm. However I did it not happy about it but I did do it. So first step taken. Managed to hit class on time. I've decided to stop drinking coffee while I'm doing this cause it's something to have that first one and that first cup of coffee that says all is right with my world. So no coffee. Now what? Ahhh I know Herbal Tea just have to figure which one to buy. I attend a smoke free campus. No breaks today to much to finish up before the break. Now what? Pop quiz OH GOD why me I did read I didn't retain however I am going to pass this sucker. We are now into deviant sexual practices, fetishes, and what types there are (something I have a passing acquaintance with) Prof. in the front of the room is stating that a CD is transsexual usually homosexual and very confused. OK normally in class I let the people believe what they want to believe and I say nothing. OK today wasn't one of them. Hand goes up Excuse me but you are wrong."Wrong?" he states with an eyebrow raised. Hell I can raise mine to."Yes you are, a crossdresser maybe homosexual, bisexual, or heterosexual. A transsexual is someone that identifies with the sex opposite their own and a transvestite is a cross dresser." She states in a calm voice.Classmates in the background turn to look at me with strange looks. Hey I don't need there looks I have a few of my own. He goes on to lecture about fetishes and sadism, masochism, bondage discipline (something else I have a passing acquaintance with) "These(sadist) people prey on others to acquire numerous partners that they thrive on causing pain to their partner. They are unable to obtain sexual satisfaction unless there is pain involved." He states unequivocally, shooting a glance in my direction. Ok folks maybe it's the lack of nicotine, but that seemed like a challenge to me and well hell I stood up looked him dead in the eye and said "Bullshit" and sat down again. Ok I could have been a little more eloquent and definitely more articulate, but all my brilliance was not available. He looks at me again and says Miss What would you know about such behavior. Ok I am not a total fool I do say that sexual deviations have always fascinated me since I knew what sex was. "Sadist don't prey in the BDSM community for long, word gets out about them, although there are a few of those out there the community does police itself to keep others safe. A sadist is one that inflicts pain to a masochist. Which the masochist enjoys craves, needs and wants. In order to get this he/she will discuss what is possible and what isn't which are known as limits some of which, hard ones, not to be crossed no matter what. The masochist will do for the sadist what is discussed before hand and agreed upon. Depending on the amount of pain the masochist is willing to endure which allows the endorphins to come out and turn that pain into pleasure."My study partner at this time looks over at me and shakes his head and grins he knows me for what I am and accepts. Class we seem to have a prodigy amongst us on fetishes. No you don't you have someone that is interested in the world around her and what possibilities there are in it. Ok by this time the urge for a cig was getting strong. What other fairy tales do you wish to tell us about these people that have no control over their baser urges. Ok the urge for a cig is gone and I am now a little pissed.How about open your eyes and look at the world around you and smell the shit you shoveling because it's starting to stink. If you don't know the topic you shouldn't teach it. If you have no interest, take it out of the power points if you can't remove it at least know what you are talking about and stop giving out bad information, and get your facts straight. By this time there is that silence that you get when someone made a fart and it was really loud and it stunk.I love my study partner he's a dream, a joy and my friend and he started clapping. Who can resist a 6ft 5' 360 lbs male clapping. Patted me on the back and said sit your ass down before you get thrown out of class. Ok I sat( I can follow orders occasionally)After class my instructor informed me that I was not to interrupt his class again with my trivial ideas on sexual deviations. Ok this time I kept my mouth shut. I however did lick my tongue out at his back.