First

I've driven to the assigned place with my mind on a million scenarios, prepped for that first of what is to be many times together. The instruction were sent during emails in the beginning Leaving no doubt what you wanted or what was expected from the first session together. You know in your mind that all you have said was done and you carry that overly stuffed toy bag with you. Not sure what you are going to use but sure you will use at least one of the items in it. There he is in the hotel a little nervous, not sure what to expect, eyes clear and a little shy so sweet. He chose me, yes it's an ego trip to be chosen and somewhat of a turn on in itself. The trust to do no harm is the second that this individual with a will of his own accepts that he will give up his will to you for the benefit of your pleasure and your enjoyment. To be restrained, blindfolded, and stripped of all but the skin of his body in your presence. It's an ego trip and an acceptance of responsibility to do the best you can to guide, teach, and expand the horizons of both you and the one that choose you.After months of conversations and emails and that all important first meeting. The exchange of information that has been discussed and examined for details left out. Needs discussed and expectations stated, you come to that first session together and it's so intimately exciting and revealing to feel that one precious moment of why you do what you do and the pleasure it gives you both. To feel him trembling in your arms and telling him to hold on to you it will be alright he is safe in your arms. To hear that first grasp of breath as you caress that skin that slightly trembles at your touch. To know that this one has given you the power to bring pleasure or pain or a wonderful combination of both to his world as that collar is slipped around his neck and the leash is there dangling down his back and that look awaiting your first command that will start the journey you have chosen to take together.That one moment of sheer panic you feel when your mind goes blank because this is the first time you are together, that deep breath you take to settle your nerves and that first one is uttered softly but definite.That first uttered yes Ma'am as compliance is attained. It gives me a feeling of joy to see that smile after the session to hold him in my arms and caress that well shaved chin, look in his eyes and say how much he has pleased me. Perhaps I am not anyones idea of a Dominate, but whether the trip is a sensual journey or one filled with that heady combination of pain and pleasure that balance each other to the point where you aren't sure where one sensation starts and the other ends.