There are times I wonder about why I do the things I do. Not that I don't enjoy the normal, not that I don't like and enjoy the rational behaviour of every day life. But there are times I want to cut loose and have fun. This is the last weekend I have before I take the boards. I have a submissive of my very own that I truly enjoy training as well as molesting on a regular basis. This weekend he choose to spend it at home. He felt that perhaps because it was so close to the time that Iwould take my test that I should be concentrating on that instead of him.
At first I was very angry because I am the one that makes such decesions in this relationship. Then I thought about it for awhile and discovered he was right. This is not the time to be busy with him this is the time to concentrate more then ever on my future. So I forgave him his forwardness however I have not forgotten it. And as always as there are consequences to every action there are consequences to this one. Not sure what they will be until I sit down and concentrate on something other then the boards. So much are/is riding on them my well being for one thing as well as employiblity and how I will be set for the rest of my life. I need to pass this so I can go on to bigger and better things.
So I am at home this weekend well actually not the whole weekend just tonite tomorrow work is as usual and I am first going to concentrate of finishing this then I am going to sit down and do test questions until I feel comfortable with them.
12.20.2008
12.16.2008
The Joys of Blogging
K doesn't like blogging. He fights it tooth and nail each time he has to put one in the required space on Thursday. His claim is that he never has anything to write. My claim is that I don't care what he puts in it I want it done. He treats the blog like most people treat going to the dentist a necessary evil, that should be put off to the last minute.
I know he hates it almost as much as I do brussel sprouts, but then when I was young I was told they are good for you. I didn't believe it then and I don't believe it now, however parenting is a D/s relationship and you do what you are told when you are in the submissive in the D/s relationship. So, my thought is, I had to do it, he has to do it, and we'll both be better for it in the end.
This weeks bout of blogitis was probably more traumatic the necessary being the silly season is upon us and he has some job issues in the wood pile, but as I told him, those things are not my concern. His job is to please me and although he does a remarkable job of doing so, on ever level that we come in contact, this is one of his sticking points. However I am oiling it with a serious incentive plan.
As we all know there are consequences to each action and although he does give me a great deal of pleasure he is going to learn to obey me or it's going to get interesting. The first salvo into this realm of interesting consequences is not the usual flicker whip use 10 full force hits for each day it's late. Although that worked nicely K is a pain slut and we are trying to discover where his threshold is so giving him more pain on top of what is already sexual stimulating to him would not be the smartest idea I have ever come up with, so I had to go back to the drawing board to figure out how to make the blogs more attractive and make sure he got them in on time. I know the flicker works nicely and as punishments go it makes my juices flow thank you very much, but it also is not the best way to train a pain slut.
Pain is something that turns him on, so you do not reward bad behaviour with a treat ie flogging, CBT or nipple torture. You find the thing he/she likes the most and take it away from them or you make the act of achieving what he/she likes the most as humiliating as you possibly can, but allow them to get their hearts desire. The test will be coming in a few weeks and I will report back on what I have discovered in the way of my thought process working accurately or if I'm full of crap and don't know what I am talking about.
There are drawbacks to this plan of action one of which is knowing what is enough. Some go overboard with the humiliation part or the submissive discovers that the treat isn't worth the effort to reach it. There is a fine line between reward, humiliation and going to the extreme. I don't want to kill the boy I just want to teach him a lesson in learning where he is in my evolutionary scale. So the plan at the moment is to humilate him to the point of not wanting to disappoint me again, make the goal worth the effort he is going to put forth to get his reward as well as make him learn that although this particular humilation is bad there are others much worse that I could come up with that would be more so.
What is the punishment you ask? We are going to play a little game called blind mans bluff. The thing that K seems to enjoy the most is giving oral gratification and I must admit the boy has some skills in that area. Ok the boy has excellent skills in that area his job whether he likes it or not is to discover if he can reach his favorite area while crawling on hands and knees blindfolded with only the sound of my voice to guide him. It's going to be an interesting exercise for two reasons one his place is narrow the living room is nice size but small. The hallways are narrow as well so I am going to have to be extremely careful how I taunt him. Should be an interesting exercise oh did I mention his scrotum is going to be attached to a concrete block so even if he can move it it's going to be seriously slow going for him to reach me at any given time. Yes I know I am devious but then again I'm hunting the best submissive for one Domme and I know I have him in my sights just have to make sure he knows who is in charge of whom. So if you read this my little treasure Happy Blogging
I know he hates it almost as much as I do brussel sprouts, but then when I was young I was told they are good for you. I didn't believe it then and I don't believe it now, however parenting is a D/s relationship and you do what you are told when you are in the submissive in the D/s relationship. So, my thought is, I had to do it, he has to do it, and we'll both be better for it in the end.
This weeks bout of blogitis was probably more traumatic the necessary being the silly season is upon us and he has some job issues in the wood pile, but as I told him, those things are not my concern. His job is to please me and although he does a remarkable job of doing so, on ever level that we come in contact, this is one of his sticking points. However I am oiling it with a serious incentive plan.
As we all know there are consequences to each action and although he does give me a great deal of pleasure he is going to learn to obey me or it's going to get interesting. The first salvo into this realm of interesting consequences is not the usual flicker whip use 10 full force hits for each day it's late. Although that worked nicely K is a pain slut and we are trying to discover where his threshold is so giving him more pain on top of what is already sexual stimulating to him would not be the smartest idea I have ever come up with, so I had to go back to the drawing board to figure out how to make the blogs more attractive and make sure he got them in on time. I know the flicker works nicely and as punishments go it makes my juices flow thank you very much, but it also is not the best way to train a pain slut.
Pain is something that turns him on, so you do not reward bad behaviour with a treat ie flogging, CBT or nipple torture. You find the thing he/she likes the most and take it away from them or you make the act of achieving what he/she likes the most as humiliating as you possibly can, but allow them to get their hearts desire. The test will be coming in a few weeks and I will report back on what I have discovered in the way of my thought process working accurately or if I'm full of crap and don't know what I am talking about.
There are drawbacks to this plan of action one of which is knowing what is enough. Some go overboard with the humiliation part or the submissive discovers that the treat isn't worth the effort to reach it. There is a fine line between reward, humiliation and going to the extreme. I don't want to kill the boy I just want to teach him a lesson in learning where he is in my evolutionary scale. So the plan at the moment is to humilate him to the point of not wanting to disappoint me again, make the goal worth the effort he is going to put forth to get his reward as well as make him learn that although this particular humilation is bad there are others much worse that I could come up with that would be more so.
What is the punishment you ask? We are going to play a little game called blind mans bluff. The thing that K seems to enjoy the most is giving oral gratification and I must admit the boy has some skills in that area. Ok the boy has excellent skills in that area his job whether he likes it or not is to discover if he can reach his favorite area while crawling on hands and knees blindfolded with only the sound of my voice to guide him. It's going to be an interesting exercise for two reasons one his place is narrow the living room is nice size but small. The hallways are narrow as well so I am going to have to be extremely careful how I taunt him. Should be an interesting exercise oh did I mention his scrotum is going to be attached to a concrete block so even if he can move it it's going to be seriously slow going for him to reach me at any given time. Yes I know I am devious but then again I'm hunting the best submissive for one Domme and I know I have him in my sights just have to make sure he knows who is in charge of whom. So if you read this my little treasure Happy Blogging
12.15.2008
I have a submissive he lives in the Keys we get together whenever my work and his permits normally we get together at least 2-3 times a month and I put him through his paces. The relationship is a work in progress sometimes things go smoothly other times there are a bumps here and their but for the most part things have been going smoothly. We seem to be compatible and sessions are definitely interesting.
The thing that makes me laugh about him is that one of his requirements is putting in a blog once a week. It can be on anything that meets his fancy about sessions together, things that happen in his life or just observations in day to day life. He hates it but once he gets it in it's always well written and coherent unlike his Ma'am blogs which occasionally make sense. He is a progressive thinker is my subby normally logical with an understanding of cause and effect. However he hasn't figured out yet that if the blog isn't in on time there are consequences. Not that he's an idiot he not he just hates writing and he will try to negotiate ways of putting it off as long as possible. Most of the time I find it amusing because he has learned or should have learned that there is no compromise on this they will be in and on time the only acceptable excuse is death either his or a close family member which he also understands.
His dead line is Thursday at 5 pm because I know that in his line of work Friday to Monday are his busiest time of the week. While studying yesterday before work we had one of our conversations about blogging. I cut him some slack this week because he was refinishing his home and was in the last stretch of replacing a really bad floor with weak spots, had a few meetings about a court case dealing with a faulty building and last but not least depositions and meetings with lawyers about the above case.
So yes this week I did compromise and told him it could be late this week, but it had to be in by Sunday no later then 5pm. The conversations started off pretty good he's been doing his stretching exercises to stretch specific areas for use as well as discussions on an up coming visit for a party here with a few of my friends. We hit on the high points of what the plans for the holidays are as well as when we would be meeting next and at the close of conversation came the usual reminder about the blog and I got the normal groan/moan and comment about the blog. Then the negotiations started with the stipulation that consequences would not be pleasant. Then the funny stuff started the Internet was down, he suddenly needed a nap he felt that he couldn't possibly continue because of his exhaustion and so on and so on. I explained gently that I would be more then happy to concede the extra day however there would be consequences to the deed but yes he could post Monday instead of Sunday.
He prefers knowing exactly what he is getting into and I am one to like to give him a surprise or two when it comes to punishments after all surprises are always a welcome event in ones life are they not? I know for a fact that he can't sit still for more then 20 minutes unless he is involved with something and even with involvement, it's an iffy proposition. He doesn't like the flicker whip which is one of the reasons I like it so much for the simple reason according to him "it gets his attention". He is also a male with pride, something that pleases me a great deal because he is a reflection on my teaching methods as well as on the way he will turn out. So as gently as I could I conceded the point of the blog and told him the consequences of not having it in on time. The profusion of Ma'am I have to get off the phone to do the blog like now was amusing to say the least. I laughed so hard I was crying. I gotta tell ya the boy can make me laugh. I had to rescind the stipulation that if you can make me laugh you won't get punished just because of him.
So now he's awaiting the consequences of his actions and what he has accomplished with procrastination.
The thing that makes me laugh about him is that one of his requirements is putting in a blog once a week. It can be on anything that meets his fancy about sessions together, things that happen in his life or just observations in day to day life. He hates it but once he gets it in it's always well written and coherent unlike his Ma'am blogs which occasionally make sense. He is a progressive thinker is my subby normally logical with an understanding of cause and effect. However he hasn't figured out yet that if the blog isn't in on time there are consequences. Not that he's an idiot he not he just hates writing and he will try to negotiate ways of putting it off as long as possible. Most of the time I find it amusing because he has learned or should have learned that there is no compromise on this they will be in and on time the only acceptable excuse is death either his or a close family member which he also understands.
His dead line is Thursday at 5 pm because I know that in his line of work Friday to Monday are his busiest time of the week. While studying yesterday before work we had one of our conversations about blogging. I cut him some slack this week because he was refinishing his home and was in the last stretch of replacing a really bad floor with weak spots, had a few meetings about a court case dealing with a faulty building and last but not least depositions and meetings with lawyers about the above case.
So yes this week I did compromise and told him it could be late this week, but it had to be in by Sunday no later then 5pm. The conversations started off pretty good he's been doing his stretching exercises to stretch specific areas for use as well as discussions on an up coming visit for a party here with a few of my friends. We hit on the high points of what the plans for the holidays are as well as when we would be meeting next and at the close of conversation came the usual reminder about the blog and I got the normal groan/moan and comment about the blog. Then the negotiations started with the stipulation that consequences would not be pleasant. Then the funny stuff started the Internet was down, he suddenly needed a nap he felt that he couldn't possibly continue because of his exhaustion and so on and so on. I explained gently that I would be more then happy to concede the extra day however there would be consequences to the deed but yes he could post Monday instead of Sunday.
He prefers knowing exactly what he is getting into and I am one to like to give him a surprise or two when it comes to punishments after all surprises are always a welcome event in ones life are they not? I know for a fact that he can't sit still for more then 20 minutes unless he is involved with something and even with involvement, it's an iffy proposition. He doesn't like the flicker whip which is one of the reasons I like it so much for the simple reason according to him "it gets his attention". He is also a male with pride, something that pleases me a great deal because he is a reflection on my teaching methods as well as on the way he will turn out. So as gently as I could I conceded the point of the blog and told him the consequences of not having it in on time. The profusion of Ma'am I have to get off the phone to do the blog like now was amusing to say the least. I laughed so hard I was crying. I gotta tell ya the boy can make me laugh. I had to rescind the stipulation that if you can make me laugh you won't get punished just because of him.
So now he's awaiting the consequences of his actions and what he has accomplished with procrastination.
12.04.2008
Interesting Thing Happened on the Way to Domination
I have a sub he's a remarkable human in many ways. Sometimes funny sometimes serious and always with a certain fatal charm that grips you and makes you look at him seriously for a few seconds thinking I don't believe he said that! I spend the better part of an hour or two each day thinking of ways to torment, excite and illicit those startling blue eyes of his to roll and widen in bewilderment. We have fun he and I sometimes it's sexual which is a good thing for me, sometimes it's just the pleasure of having company. He is always thinking of ways, almost as frequently as I do, to make our sessions better. At last I have found the one thing that I was missing in a sub, that can and does make me expand my own horizons as a Dominate, a mind that is fully functional, reasonably sane, and actively seeking what I have to offer in the way of fun, humiliation, and dominance.
Whether he is naked underneath his apron serving a meal, suspended from a ceiling while I either flog or stimulate him he is entertaining. I use the term entertaining in that he makes me laugh, always brings a smile to my face and I enjoy our interaction more then even he thinks I do. What can you not expand on when you walk in to the room and say softly "Hello little one" and there is an immediate tent in his pants? Now that is appreciation of skills expanded on the pleasure of both of us.
I must say I got lucky not sure how I did but then again I am pleased with this particular hand I have been dealt and I think I will enjoy it for eons to come.
Whether he is naked underneath his apron serving a meal, suspended from a ceiling while I either flog or stimulate him he is entertaining. I use the term entertaining in that he makes me laugh, always brings a smile to my face and I enjoy our interaction more then even he thinks I do. What can you not expand on when you walk in to the room and say softly "Hello little one" and there is an immediate tent in his pants? Now that is appreciation of skills expanded on the pleasure of both of us.
I must say I got lucky not sure how I did but then again I am pleased with this particular hand I have been dealt and I think I will enjoy it for eons to come.
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