I am soft. I am sensual. I am compassionate. I am not perfect. I am funny. I am cute not beautiful. I am thoughtful. I am romantic. I am strong, yet sensitive. I am giving and generous. I am a woman that gives pleasure and pain. I am Full-figured, and I am fabulous!Here I am a terrific and unusual person of large and shapely proportions. In search for a submissive male. It's not easy trust me when I tell you that being large and in charge, looking for the special one to crack with a flogger or engage in some other fun activities and not being able to find them. It's frustrating, sometimes demoralizing, and down right aggravating to say the least. Not that I haven't had a sub or two, I've had four in seven years. Why so many? Why so few? So many because all are not serious about the BDSM lifestyle and want a thrill for the moment. I am not a thrill for the moment type woman. I am a here and now as well as then and later type. Why so few? Because I look for quality, intelligence, stamina, honesty as well as not messing with any ones marriage. Most subs unless very young I've discovered (or it's my luck of the draw I'm not sure which) are married and want to add a little spice into their relationship. I am not what you would call the flavor of the month so the spice isn't available here. I don't mind the inexperienced they give me the opportunity to teach what I love to do, as well as learn more about myself and get better with my skills. Then there are those that tell how their previous Mistress did it. Ask me if I give less then a fiddlers finger on how she did it. I don't want your past experience I want your here and now with me so DO NOT tell me about the past. I am your future.So I search for what I want. Things are a little hectic at this point in time. I'm in school full time changing my career and not doing bad with it. I'm passing but for some reason I can't get in my learning groove again this semester. I think it's a lack of not having what I need to stimulate my mental juices to flowing and getting back in to the swing of things as it were.