I've had this blog off and on for a while finally figured out how to get back into so I can at least post somethings as well as understand that life as we know it is fun.
I have a submissive a somewhat strange creature that I indulge from time to time while having my wicked way with him. Wicked I say because there is so much more I can do and want to do with him that is both rational and sane. Why rational? One needs rationality to be sane why wicked well the things I do with him for myself take on many forms. They provide gratification in so many areas of my life. I like him as a human as well as like him as my submissive. He's learning that although he has some rights as well as voice in the discussion as welll as decesions I have the final word.
I am learning more and more about his way of doing this that I tell him to do. Strange isn't that I learn from him almost as much as he learns from me?
We meet regularly at least once a month as the minimum but that soon will expand. It's not like that once a month meeting is one day its normally around 4-6 days. In which he is under submission 18 hours a day well there is time for work as well as time to sleep but then he's all mine during the sleeping hours as well so there is fun to be had while he is dreaming his dreams and I am planning his sublimation :)
3.27.2010
6.05.2009
Here's a Giggle
A man was sick and tired of going to work every day while his wife stayed home. He wanted her to see what he went through so he prayed: "Dear Lord: I go to work every day and put in 8 hours while my wife merely stays at home. I want her to know what I go through. So, please allow her body to switch with mine for a day. Amen!" God, in his infinite wisdom, granted the man's wish. The next morning, sure enough, the man awoke as a woman. He arose, cooked breakfast for his mate, Awakened the kids, Set out their school clothes, Fed them breakfast, Packed their lunches, Drove them to school, Came home and picked up the dry cleaning, Took it to the cleaners And stopped at the bank to make a deposit, Went grocery shopping, Then drove home to put away the groceries, Paid the bills and balanced the check book. He cleaned the cat's litter box and bathed the dog. Then, it was already 1 P.M. And he hurried to make the beds, Do the laundry, vacuum, Dust, And sweep and mop the kitchen floor. Ran to the school to pick up the kids and got into an argument with them on the way home. Set out milk and cookies and got the kids organized to do their homework. Then, set up the ironing board and watched TV while he did the ironing. At 4:30 he began peeling potatoes and washing vegetables for salad, breaded the pork chops and snapped fresh beans for supper. After supper, He cleaned the kitchen, Ran the dishwasher, Folded laundry, Bathed the kids, And put them to bed. At 9 P.M . He was exhausted and, though his daily chores weren't finished, he went to bed where he was expected to make love, which he managed to get through without complaint. The next morning, he awoke and immediately knelt by the bed and said: - "Lord, I don't know what I was thinking. I was so wrong to envy my wife's being able to stay home all day. Please, oh! Oh! Please, let us trade back. Amen!" The Lord, in his infinite wisdom, replied: "My son, I feel you have learned your lesson and I will be happy to change things back to the way they were. You'll just have to wait nine months, though. You got pregnant last night."
Something to Think About
I am not the originator of this questionnaire. I found it somewhere online about three or four years ago and kept it because it made sense to me that these are some of the things people wishing to enter into a BDSM relationship should either ask themselves and each other. I have found common sense doesn't always go along with the thrill of finding that special someone that makes you feel powerful or powerless. So before anyone takes their clothing off and the fun begins one should think long and hard about what you want, how you want it and who you want to provide it. The lifestyle that I love can be a dangerous and sometimes and unstable place to meet fellow like minded individuals and the number one priority that I strongly believe in is self preservation. So before you go shopping in the human market of online as well as munchs looking for that perfect someone whether Dominant or submissive take the time to ask yourself and them a few of these questions. I know I have ask and thought about them all before I took the plunge.
What kind of submissive are you looking for?
Are you looking for a masochist who will take as much pain as you can dish out?
Are you looking for a slave?
Someone who will give up all choices?
Are you looking for a naughty girl to punish?
Someone who wants to go over your knee for a spanking?
Are you looking for a pet?
Someone who will whine like a puppy?
Are you looking for kinky sex?
Someone who you can sleep with, have a great time with and blindfold and tie up from time to time.
How much experience do you have?
When did you get started?
Have you had many partners?
Would I know any of them?
What happened with your last partner?
Why aren't you with them anymore?
How did you learn what you know? (It's OK to be inexperienced,and not OK to pretend you have experience you don't really have.)
How much of your experience is cyber vs. real time?
Have you always been dominant?
Have you tried being submissive?
Have you tried switching back and forth?
What are your thoughts on safety in a scene?
Do you believe in safe words?
Have you ever had a submissive safeword?
Tell me about the scene. How did that happen? What did you do?
What are your favorite toys?
Do you like the flogger, the cane, the wooden spoon? (smiles)
Are you more of a sex toy fan?
Do you use insert ables?
How about gags, blindfolds, hoods etc.
Do you like clips, clamps
Where do you like to play?
Do you like dungeon play and a public play space?
Would you rather play in private?
Where do you like to play?
What's the best scene you've experienced as a Dominant?
What made it your favorite?
What's your favorite D/s activity?
What have you never tried that you're keen to try in the future?
Is clothing important to you when you play?
Are you big on: - Leather - Rubber - Special clothing?
Have you asked your submissive to modify themselves in some way?
How do you mark your submissive? - Shaving? - Piercing - Tattoos, Brands - Specific clothing or jewelry
What do you think about collars?
Do you collar your submissive? Is it a permanent collar?
Have you used a training collar or a collar of consideration?
How do you feel about bondage? Rope bondage? Cuffs, leather, harnesses, Long time restraint, short time restraint
Bondage furniture like a St-Andrew's Cross, cage?
Twosomes and moresomes
How many submissive do you think a Mistress or Master can handle at once?
How many have you had at one time?
Do you have other submissive now? If so, how would we all function?
Will there be group sessions or only one on one sessions.
How often will we meet if we are in group?
How often would we meet if we are one on one?
What do you like to be called? Mistress, Domina, Ms (insert name) Ma'am, Master , Sir, Your Royal Pain in my Ass?
What are your feelings on punishment vs. discipline?
Do you punish your submissive if they don't follow your instructions?
What about relationships?
Are you into: - Play partners - A long term relationship - A live-in slave - A potentially permanent relationship
How would you know that you'd found a submissive that you wanted to be with?
What exactly is it you're looking for?
How often would you expect to play?
3 times a week, monthly, daily, when the moon is full or when the mood strikes you?
How often do you think a submissive and her dominant should be in communication?
Every day
Every couple of days
When he requires it
When she wishes to play
Do you have limits on what you will or won't do?
What are the Dominants hard limits?
Do you believe in training a submissive slowly or is it all or nothing?
Can you take little steps in learning each other?
Do you have to commit 100% on the first meeting?
What kind of submissive are you looking for?
Are you looking for a masochist who will take as much pain as you can dish out?
Are you looking for a slave?
Someone who will give up all choices?
Are you looking for a naughty girl to punish?
Someone who wants to go over your knee for a spanking?
Are you looking for a pet?
Someone who will whine like a puppy?
Are you looking for kinky sex?
Someone who you can sleep with, have a great time with and blindfold and tie up from time to time.
How much experience do you have?
When did you get started?
Have you had many partners?
Would I know any of them?
What happened with your last partner?
Why aren't you with them anymore?
How did you learn what you know? (It's OK to be inexperienced,and not OK to pretend you have experience you don't really have.)
How much of your experience is cyber vs. real time?
Have you always been dominant?
Have you tried being submissive?
Have you tried switching back and forth?
What are your thoughts on safety in a scene?
Do you believe in safe words?
Have you ever had a submissive safeword?
Tell me about the scene. How did that happen? What did you do?
What are your favorite toys?
Do you like the flogger, the cane, the wooden spoon? (smiles)
Are you more of a sex toy fan?
Do you use insert ables?
How about gags, blindfolds, hoods etc.
Do you like clips, clamps
Where do you like to play?
Do you like dungeon play and a public play space?
Would you rather play in private?
Where do you like to play?
What's the best scene you've experienced as a Dominant?
What made it your favorite?
What's your favorite D/s activity?
What have you never tried that you're keen to try in the future?
Is clothing important to you when you play?
Are you big on: - Leather - Rubber - Special clothing?
Have you asked your submissive to modify themselves in some way?
How do you mark your submissive? - Shaving? - Piercing - Tattoos, Brands - Specific clothing or jewelry
What do you think about collars?
Do you collar your submissive? Is it a permanent collar?
Have you used a training collar or a collar of consideration?
How do you feel about bondage? Rope bondage? Cuffs, leather, harnesses, Long time restraint, short time restraint
Bondage furniture like a St-Andrew's Cross, cage?
Twosomes and moresomes
How many submissive do you think a Mistress or Master can handle at once?
How many have you had at one time?
Do you have other submissive now? If so, how would we all function?
Will there be group sessions or only one on one sessions.
How often will we meet if we are in group?
How often would we meet if we are one on one?
What do you like to be called? Mistress, Domina, Ms (insert name) Ma'am, Master , Sir, Your Royal Pain in my Ass?
What are your feelings on punishment vs. discipline?
Do you punish your submissive if they don't follow your instructions?
What about relationships?
Are you into: - Play partners - A long term relationship - A live-in slave - A potentially permanent relationship
How would you know that you'd found a submissive that you wanted to be with?
What exactly is it you're looking for?
How often would you expect to play?
3 times a week, monthly, daily, when the moon is full or when the mood strikes you?
How often do you think a submissive and her dominant should be in communication?
Every day
Every couple of days
When he requires it
When she wishes to play
Do you have limits on what you will or won't do?
What are the Dominants hard limits?
Do you believe in training a submissive slowly or is it all or nothing?
Can you take little steps in learning each other?
Do you have to commit 100% on the first meeting?
What This Dominant Woman Wants
What do dominant women want?I’ve heard this question a lot, from time to time and either the answers are not to the point or they are a little to personal for comfort. I "play" with K and noticed that he did some things very right from the start. Many of my partners have made the basic needs met and were willing to learn more in the way of for lack of a better word protocol.
Each Dominant has what is important to her the needs she needs met by her submissive although the basics of respect as well as obedience are there some of us require a few more perks as it were.
So what do dominant women want? Trying not to be vague and make my thoughts clear, I am going to attempt to give my point of view remember, It's my point of view not necessarily related to truth justice or the American way.
Being my opinion I doubt if I will hit all the wants and desires of dominant woman everywhere. That would be impossible for the simple reason woman are as different as snowflakes and what would please one would probably displease another. I am not using scientific research just an opinion that I have talked over with friends both vanilla as well as kinky to get an idea of what they consistently agree are what most want. It is only a beginning.
The small stuff does matter:
The simple things that any woman expects. Personal touch to interactions like referring to me in the preferred address such as Ma'am instead of Mistress, or that I like my butt rubbed instead of my back for soothing. I like water on the bedside table when I lay down for the night, or when serving a meal he dresses in an apron and his collar is in place. It says to me that I am learning you and want to please you in particular not just anyone. it adds that personal touch.
He makes it clear how important I am to him:
He makes time for me in his schedule to write me emails, gives me a call saying I was thinking of you when we can't be together, purchasing something he knows I would like. We aren't talking something expensive a bouquet of flowers, a stuff animal because I collect them something that says I was thinking of you and I would like you to think of me.
He makes me feel wanted:
His actions and his words convey this sentiment, yet he doesn't expect that he can demand my time, attention, desire, or body because he does.
He wants to be with me:
He is polite with thank you and please. He states what he can and can not do clearly and honestly. If he can't leave work early he states so and gives me a time he is available. Or I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so flogging my balls is not possible today. He lets me know when he has reached his limit by using his safe word or asking for mercy.
He knows reality and fantasy has its place:
He works, has hobbies things that are important to him. He is human with a life outside of the one that we create together. He is a complete person and kink is not the only thing we have in common. He is my friend as well as my partner and are equals when not in session. We talk, grab a meal, enjoy a show together We may even acquire friends in common at some point in our association.
He serves me:
In whatever capacity I choose whether it's running errands, writing a blog and getting it in on time, cleaning the house, moving furniture, going shopping with me and being a bag carrier, or purchasing groceries for the evening meal. He does them to the best of his ability. He doesn't use this as a way to screw up to be chastised nor does he use it for a way to get sex. He does it to please me.
I am not his dirty little secret:
Being kinky is not a dirty little secret. If he is ashamed of his submission to me that means he's ashamed of me. I understand discretion and respect the need for it in certain aspects of his life. But someone that is ashamed of his desire for kink that it is wrong or nasty. I can't play with I have to ask myself what does he think of my desires or needs for his submission?
He understands that I have many faces:
No I am not a split personality but there are many parts of me that create the whole person. I have hobbies and interest inside and outside of being kinky. Because I do something with him he has no right to think I will do it with others. He respects that he is part of my life but he is not my whole life.
His submission should mean something to him:
There are submissives by the score that want the porn of it. They have no care of what it will mean to themselves as individuals. However his should reflect his submission to me not just anybody holding that flogger or paddle.
He understands life intrudes:
Although plans can be made and satisfaction can be scheduled to be met, life will intrude even when one plans to the best of their ability. He should understand that I am as disappointed as he is when things intrude in the times we have set aside and not be whiner.
In closoing being a woman and dominant means that I expect certain behaviours from my submissive. I am also somewhat of a romantic, many of us are and many of us are not. We are all different in our Dominance and have different desires needs and wants from the submissive males we control. As stated earlier this is my opinion.
Each Dominant has what is important to her the needs she needs met by her submissive although the basics of respect as well as obedience are there some of us require a few more perks as it were.
So what do dominant women want? Trying not to be vague and make my thoughts clear, I am going to attempt to give my point of view remember, It's my point of view not necessarily related to truth justice or the American way.
Being my opinion I doubt if I will hit all the wants and desires of dominant woman everywhere. That would be impossible for the simple reason woman are as different as snowflakes and what would please one would probably displease another. I am not using scientific research just an opinion that I have talked over with friends both vanilla as well as kinky to get an idea of what they consistently agree are what most want. It is only a beginning.
The small stuff does matter:
The simple things that any woman expects. Personal touch to interactions like referring to me in the preferred address such as Ma'am instead of Mistress, or that I like my butt rubbed instead of my back for soothing. I like water on the bedside table when I lay down for the night, or when serving a meal he dresses in an apron and his collar is in place. It says to me that I am learning you and want to please you in particular not just anyone. it adds that personal touch.
He makes it clear how important I am to him:
He makes time for me in his schedule to write me emails, gives me a call saying I was thinking of you when we can't be together, purchasing something he knows I would like. We aren't talking something expensive a bouquet of flowers, a stuff animal because I collect them something that says I was thinking of you and I would like you to think of me.
He makes me feel wanted:
His actions and his words convey this sentiment, yet he doesn't expect that he can demand my time, attention, desire, or body because he does.
He wants to be with me:
He is polite with thank you and please. He states what he can and can not do clearly and honestly. If he can't leave work early he states so and gives me a time he is available. Or I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so flogging my balls is not possible today. He lets me know when he has reached his limit by using his safe word or asking for mercy.
He knows reality and fantasy has its place:
He works, has hobbies things that are important to him. He is human with a life outside of the one that we create together. He is a complete person and kink is not the only thing we have in common. He is my friend as well as my partner and are equals when not in session. We talk, grab a meal, enjoy a show together We may even acquire friends in common at some point in our association.
He serves me:
In whatever capacity I choose whether it's running errands, writing a blog and getting it in on time, cleaning the house, moving furniture, going shopping with me and being a bag carrier, or purchasing groceries for the evening meal. He does them to the best of his ability. He doesn't use this as a way to screw up to be chastised nor does he use it for a way to get sex. He does it to please me.
I am not his dirty little secret:
Being kinky is not a dirty little secret. If he is ashamed of his submission to me that means he's ashamed of me. I understand discretion and respect the need for it in certain aspects of his life. But someone that is ashamed of his desire for kink that it is wrong or nasty. I can't play with I have to ask myself what does he think of my desires or needs for his submission?
He understands that I have many faces:
No I am not a split personality but there are many parts of me that create the whole person. I have hobbies and interest inside and outside of being kinky. Because I do something with him he has no right to think I will do it with others. He respects that he is part of my life but he is not my whole life.
His submission should mean something to him:
There are submissives by the score that want the porn of it. They have no care of what it will mean to themselves as individuals. However his should reflect his submission to me not just anybody holding that flogger or paddle.
He understands life intrudes:
Although plans can be made and satisfaction can be scheduled to be met, life will intrude even when one plans to the best of their ability. He should understand that I am as disappointed as he is when things intrude in the times we have set aside and not be whiner.
In closoing being a woman and dominant means that I expect certain behaviours from my submissive. I am also somewhat of a romantic, many of us are and many of us are not. We are all different in our Dominance and have different desires needs and wants from the submissive males we control. As stated earlier this is my opinion.
Dominance and Submission
I have been thinking a lot lately on the give and take of a D/s relationship. I have come to the conclusion that submission is a seduction in and of itself. Helplessness, powerlessness and giving of ones will to another, has always been seductive. The feel of it makes one crave it more as each time together you and your partner experience the thrills of being together. The trick comes in, in how much of your will you are willing to let go of and how much will leave of its on accord without the submissive giving a fight to maintain some of their independence from your will. But isn’t D/s total subjugation of your will? Nope it’s not it’s the parts you are willing to share that.
The pleasing and giving pleasure to another no matter its form is submission. It has nothing to do with sex, nor does it have anything to do with pain. It is something that even dominants have to do.
No I am not crazy and although many will think I am talking out of my butt if you look at it honestly and straightforwardly you will know that life as we know it is a series of give and take, control and submission if you will.
Control has its own seduction how much can I get on my own, how much more can I take either willingly given or unwillingly taken. The trick in that is to taking what is only willingly given. And sometimes I admit it’s hard to do that sometimes you want to devour the whole but commonsense comes to play and you understand that what would be left would be a mindless empty vessel without purpose or reason.
To control another is seductive in that it satisfies a craving to have someone that is willing nee eager to obey it fulfills both parties to the point of feeling complete because there is always two sides to each coin giving and taking.
To avoid it we sometimes try rechanneling it, redirecting it, sublimating it to other more acceptable practices, but it comes back and slaps us on the butt telling us that although we may have fooled it for a time it that we need this hidden part of us to make us complete and whole. When it returns, the craving is stronger and harder to put down.
We as humans have needs for acceptance and gratification we choose to indulge in an activity that sometimes sends us orbiting that is so fulfilling and satisfying that when we come down the drop is exceptionally hard. To not have this feeling of fulfillment to some is worse then death. An extreme analogy, perhaps although it’s not our life and serves no other purpose other then self gratification. Could you live without it?
The pleasing and giving pleasure to another no matter its form is submission. It has nothing to do with sex, nor does it have anything to do with pain. It is something that even dominants have to do.
No I am not crazy and although many will think I am talking out of my butt if you look at it honestly and straightforwardly you will know that life as we know it is a series of give and take, control and submission if you will.
Control has its own seduction how much can I get on my own, how much more can I take either willingly given or unwillingly taken. The trick in that is to taking what is only willingly given. And sometimes I admit it’s hard to do that sometimes you want to devour the whole but commonsense comes to play and you understand that what would be left would be a mindless empty vessel without purpose or reason.
To control another is seductive in that it satisfies a craving to have someone that is willing nee eager to obey it fulfills both parties to the point of feeling complete because there is always two sides to each coin giving and taking.
To avoid it we sometimes try rechanneling it, redirecting it, sublimating it to other more acceptable practices, but it comes back and slaps us on the butt telling us that although we may have fooled it for a time it that we need this hidden part of us to make us complete and whole. When it returns, the craving is stronger and harder to put down.
We as humans have needs for acceptance and gratification we choose to indulge in an activity that sometimes sends us orbiting that is so fulfilling and satisfying that when we come down the drop is exceptionally hard. To not have this feeling of fulfillment to some is worse then death. An extreme analogy, perhaps although it’s not our life and serves no other purpose other then self gratification. Could you live without it?
There are times I have a great deal to say about what goes on in my life and there are other times when I'm so busy I can't write about what goes on in my life. So be it. Life will intrude on a good time however the thing one must remember is that intrusions as well as playing it's all good because it is life. The alternative sucks large. I have a sub I visit from time to time and when we get together it's always an interesting time. We play, we talk, and we relax in each others company. The topic of this particular blog is when we play.
I am a sadist which means that there will be some form of pain involved in anything I do. Not necessarily severe pain but then again I like that as well, but normally it's moderate to mild pain involved when I put my hands on him. I have one of those signature things I do once I've achieved the ball elasticity that I crave it's called or I call it the rope trick. It's simple really I place thin either cotton or hemp rope around the base of the balls and wind a rope around it until there is enough space for only to the balls to breath comfortable. After a time they will turn either purple or extremely red. I do the same thing to the penis as well from base to tip leaving tip free to gauge the amount of blood flow that is there. We really want to avoid turning the penis black. This is not a good color for it. Even if the penis in question is that of a black man. The one thing that I have found as strange in the BDSM community is that I have never had a black sub white ones yes but never a black one. I really don't care one way or the other all I want is the submission of that individual..
Sorry back on target here. once both are a nice cherry red or going toward violet is when the fun begins. This trick does two things restricts the blood flow and causes serious pain when being released. between the penis and balls flopping around at high speeds and meeting occasionally in the middle, it can elicit a great deal of moans groans and an occasional scream from the ah victim hmmm I mean submissive.. Besides I like doing it. Now the problem came in when I met present sub. He had no extra room at all penis and balls were as one no stretch nor even space to place rope so I began him on a series of exercises to stretch the area. First it was hands only stretching the area in question then it was using the rings. You know the ones I mean you find them in Office depot, Office Max or Staples they come in a pack of 12 with a circumference of about 2 inches inside. Although it is touch and go with getting these on, as you add an additional one on each week they scrotum becomes longer and less thick which allows the balls to hang.
Now while in this suspended mode the balls can be smacked tickled, caresses smoothed paddled flogged and other assorted items. The interesting thing is using the whartonburg wheel on them one must be EXTREMELY careful not to break the skin because it has been thinned out considerable with the tightness on the of the binding rope. It is somewhat of a challenge to give just the right amount and no more. I truly hate playing with blood so I try to be very careful although sometimes accidents happen. However the reaction of a sub is actually delicious.
You also never leave them bound for more then 10 minutes fifteen minutes tops because being the responsible type you would like to continue playing with the aforesaid appendages. So after the spanking, paddling, flogging, caressing, smoothing comes the unwinding. I like to do it fast which makes everything kind of knock together repeatedly considering I use about six feet of rope for both appendages and walk away while it unwinds. I of course have put my sub in restraints so the only thing he can do is moan and bear it but it's always a fun thing to do when one is in company.
Afterwards there is the cuddling and praise for good behaviour and of course there is the satisfaction that one gets for torturing a sub and allowing yourself some pleasure. at the same time.
Alas these joys are going to be absent from my life for the next 90 days because my little one is going away on business out of the country. I think I am actually going to miss more then his balls and nipples for the duration.
I am a sadist which means that there will be some form of pain involved in anything I do. Not necessarily severe pain but then again I like that as well, but normally it's moderate to mild pain involved when I put my hands on him. I have one of those signature things I do once I've achieved the ball elasticity that I crave it's called or I call it the rope trick. It's simple really I place thin either cotton or hemp rope around the base of the balls and wind a rope around it until there is enough space for only to the balls to breath comfortable. After a time they will turn either purple or extremely red. I do the same thing to the penis as well from base to tip leaving tip free to gauge the amount of blood flow that is there. We really want to avoid turning the penis black. This is not a good color for it. Even if the penis in question is that of a black man. The one thing that I have found as strange in the BDSM community is that I have never had a black sub white ones yes but never a black one. I really don't care one way or the other all I want is the submission of that individual..
Sorry back on target here. once both are a nice cherry red or going toward violet is when the fun begins. This trick does two things restricts the blood flow and causes serious pain when being released. between the penis and balls flopping around at high speeds and meeting occasionally in the middle, it can elicit a great deal of moans groans and an occasional scream from the ah victim hmmm I mean submissive.. Besides I like doing it. Now the problem came in when I met present sub. He had no extra room at all penis and balls were as one no stretch nor even space to place rope so I began him on a series of exercises to stretch the area. First it was hands only stretching the area in question then it was using the rings. You know the ones I mean you find them in Office depot, Office Max or Staples they come in a pack of 12 with a circumference of about 2 inches inside. Although it is touch and go with getting these on, as you add an additional one on each week they scrotum becomes longer and less thick which allows the balls to hang.
Now while in this suspended mode the balls can be smacked tickled, caresses smoothed paddled flogged and other assorted items. The interesting thing is using the whartonburg wheel on them one must be EXTREMELY careful not to break the skin because it has been thinned out considerable with the tightness on the of the binding rope. It is somewhat of a challenge to give just the right amount and no more. I truly hate playing with blood so I try to be very careful although sometimes accidents happen. However the reaction of a sub is actually delicious.
You also never leave them bound for more then 10 minutes fifteen minutes tops because being the responsible type you would like to continue playing with the aforesaid appendages. So after the spanking, paddling, flogging, caressing, smoothing comes the unwinding. I like to do it fast which makes everything kind of knock together repeatedly considering I use about six feet of rope for both appendages and walk away while it unwinds. I of course have put my sub in restraints so the only thing he can do is moan and bear it but it's always a fun thing to do when one is in company.
Afterwards there is the cuddling and praise for good behaviour and of course there is the satisfaction that one gets for torturing a sub and allowing yourself some pleasure. at the same time.
Alas these joys are going to be absent from my life for the next 90 days because my little one is going away on business out of the country. I think I am actually going to miss more then his balls and nipples for the duration.
3.30.2009
Learning Something New
I have always been to busy to do anything related to "fun stuff". Most of my contemporaries have at one time or another tried pot, I have always found something else to spend the money on, or something to do rather then attempt to use it. Besides if my parents tried to kill me because I was intoxicated on a couple of beers can you imagine what they would have done if I was high on weed? I shudder to think on it myself because I know how it killed them to watch one of their children get addicted and then die from a drug over dose, so no I wasn't one of those that experimented with drugs in the '80's while growing up in New York and other places around the world.
But now that I am in my forties I've tried it. Not sure I liked the fact that it was easy to lose so much control after all I am a control freak, but I was curious. I have often wondered, as well as, speculated on the reasons why people choose chemical oblivion to reality, but then again, I also believe to each his/her own so I had an experimental joint. Control left as well as coordination, visual acuity and a few other body functions but we are not going to discuss that one at this time just the skin. It was sensitive to EVERYTHING a breath blown on it gave it goose bumps in triplicate, A hand brushing across skin gave it a sensitivity that was almost painful but exhilarating and arousing one mustn't forget how arousing it was to be touched so delicately that sensations were all that could be focused on.
There is truth in wine. I gotta tell you there is truth in weed as well. It makes you think with one small part of your brain and wonder about the universe and how it connects to you, why it took you so long to have an experience that was mind conscious as well as body overly conscious. It stimulated to the point that all nerve endings were alive with a life of their own. You that have tried this shrug your shoulders and say so what I who ever never done this in my life wonder at what else I have missed. However I am not going to attempt to find out at this late stage. K keeps telling me that I told him that life is for the living and should be lived to the fullest and to some extent I agree with my own thoughts on this. The thing you have to remember is all things in moderation.
So I've had my drug experiment, it was a remarkable experience and I have every intention of trying it one more time to see if the sames results occur, but that is all I am going to do. Why if it was wonderful would I stop? Because along with the good there is bad. I don't like the amount of control I lost. Not that I was nympho maniac or anything not that it scared me to lose that much of my natural inhibitions, but the lack of control and feeling of bewilderment is not acceptable to me. So I've had my experiment with drugs and it was mind blowing, but in this case twice will be enough for me.
But now that I am in my forties I've tried it. Not sure I liked the fact that it was easy to lose so much control after all I am a control freak, but I was curious. I have often wondered, as well as, speculated on the reasons why people choose chemical oblivion to reality, but then again, I also believe to each his/her own so I had an experimental joint. Control left as well as coordination, visual acuity and a few other body functions but we are not going to discuss that one at this time just the skin. It was sensitive to EVERYTHING a breath blown on it gave it goose bumps in triplicate, A hand brushing across skin gave it a sensitivity that was almost painful but exhilarating and arousing one mustn't forget how arousing it was to be touched so delicately that sensations were all that could be focused on.
There is truth in wine. I gotta tell you there is truth in weed as well. It makes you think with one small part of your brain and wonder about the universe and how it connects to you, why it took you so long to have an experience that was mind conscious as well as body overly conscious. It stimulated to the point that all nerve endings were alive with a life of their own. You that have tried this shrug your shoulders and say so what I who ever never done this in my life wonder at what else I have missed. However I am not going to attempt to find out at this late stage. K keeps telling me that I told him that life is for the living and should be lived to the fullest and to some extent I agree with my own thoughts on this. The thing you have to remember is all things in moderation.
So I've had my drug experiment, it was a remarkable experience and I have every intention of trying it one more time to see if the sames results occur, but that is all I am going to do. Why if it was wonderful would I stop? Because along with the good there is bad. I don't like the amount of control I lost. Not that I was nympho maniac or anything not that it scared me to lose that much of my natural inhibitions, but the lack of control and feeling of bewilderment is not acceptable to me. So I've had my experiment with drugs and it was mind blowing, but in this case twice will be enough for me.
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