Testing 1, 2, 3,

There are times I wonder about why I do the things I do. Not that I don't enjoy the normal, not that I don't like and enjoy the rational behaviour of every day life. But there are times I want to cut loose and have fun. This is the last weekend I have before I take the boards. I have a submissive of my very own that I truly enjoy training as well as molesting on a regular basis. This weekend he choose to spend it at home. He felt that perhaps because it was so close to the time that Iwould take my test that I should be concentrating on that instead of him.

At first I was very angry because I am the one that makes such decesions in this relationship. Then I thought about it for awhile and discovered he was right. This is not the time to be busy with him this is the time to concentrate more then ever on my future. So I forgave him his forwardness however I have not forgotten it. And as always as there are consequences to every action there are consequences to this one. Not sure what they will be until I sit down and concentrate on something other then the boards. So much are/is riding on them my well being for one thing as well as employiblity and how I will be set for the rest of my life. I need to pass this so I can go on to bigger and better things.

So I am at home this weekend well actually not the whole weekend just tonite tomorrow work is as usual and I am first going to concentrate of finishing this then I am going to sit down and do test questions until I feel comfortable with them.